soleado's Diaryland Diary

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... Te Amo ...

mood: suicidal
listening to: "-mushi-" - Dir en Grey

I can't open myself up to anyone
I can't believe in anyone at all
and I can't see anything the light
that shines is disappearing, soon it will be gone
unable to open myself up this is my
weakness, my past
I can get what I want, yet if I do,
the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away
the typical answer is when you die,
you'll be reborn, come back again

my heart is shuttered, soon it will break apart
stifling my tears, I laugh day after day
my heart has shown me that believing is nothing
those hypocrites killed me

my heart is shuttered, soon it will crumble away
stifling my tears, I scream day after day
my heart has left me with a belief in strength
my own heart killed me

I can't be without him. I love him so much. I'm not the person he thinks I am. I'm not.

I can't take anymore. I really can't. I want to die. I haven't felt this horrible in a long time.

Please save me.

10:40 a.m. - 2009-11-09

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